jolie laide

jolie laide

I started this when I lived in Brooklyn and struggled for grace in a city that grants moments of beauty and ugliness breathtakingly close to one another. Now I live in a place where things are a different kind of ugly and the beauty is pedestrian. I struggle with that.


You should fall in love with me.

Because I am crouching in the gutter, taking a picture of something, intense, and you wonder if you can make me laugh with the same intensity, what my waist will feel like under your hands.

Because I am wearing this red dress, so I will burn visible in the blue hour, and you are woozy with delight that it is spring and the air is soft, and when I pass you remember that the pretty girl always goes home alone.

Because this city is a catwalk and I cannot help but to swing down the street with a dip step, a skip, and you would like to let me flow through your fingers like a stream, gather me up precious, press me to you.

Because when you look into my face you know there will be a home for you inside me and we can make worlds and set boats of flowers to sail and have birthdays every day, and that is where everything begins.


Blogger slickaphonic said...

ah, and now you've made my evening.

by the way (the way being totally out of ..well, the way...), do you ever say, "Give him what-for"? My Granny says that all the time, and I always wonder about the first time someone said that, and what they were thinking...

good lord, i've been staring at a computer screen for *too long*

this was an excellent post. thank you.

11:04 PM  
Blogger famjaztique said...

I could read this over and over. This is so brilliant in its capturing of your vulnerability and your strength. Now I wish I had written this. I do think everyone SHOULD write a paragraph or two about why the world ought to love them.

5:06 AM  
Blogger Dr. S said...

I do love this post a lot, start to finish. I was going to tell you a sentence I liked best, but then I realized I'd have to type your whole post in here.

9:20 AM  
Blogger ttractor said...

ok Nerd Girls, sounds like you each have a writing assingment....!

3:02 PM  
Blogger Dr. S said...

Ooo, an assignment.

3:48 PM  
Blogger Dr. S said...

Because no nerd girl is complete without an assignment.

3:48 PM  

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